I dreamt I was with a group of people at a restaurant. Some were friends and some were family. We were waiting to be seated, but they kept seating people that came in after us before us. I was sitting next to some guy with blond hair that was very familiar to me. I was not sure if he was my friend or family, but I was tired of waiting so I rested my head on his shoulder. He did not seem to mind so I got a little closer to him and sat like that for a while. We were finally taken to a table after everyone else had been seated.
At first I thought the table was too small, and someone told the hostess that we needed another table because that one only seated six people. She insisted that we could all sit there, and as we walked closer to the table it looked as if it had grown to accommodate more people. I noticed that there were chairs between chairs that I had not noticed before.
We were each given menus, which I put to the side. I remember my sister, my friend Joanne, and I were seated near each other. Joanne was on my left and my sister directly across from me. There were appetizers on the table already. I asked someone what they were and they said sushi. I asked what kind and they replied that it was salmon. There were other things too. I think some bread, both the sweet and plain kind. My friend Joanne started putting food on my plate, and I started eating forgetting that I had a whole menu to choose from.
When the waitress came back to take our order, someone who I could not see at the far end of the table, told her that we would need more time to decide. That is when I realized I had not even looked at all the options on the menu, and I was only eating what was put on my plate by my friend. I told her I would need more time as well, but as I looked at the menu. I was not sure what I wanted or where to look.
Everything seemed foreign to me and I was trying to find something familiar. My friend suggested I order one thing and then my sister suggested another. The waitress was standing there, and I felt pressure to choose something quick. I scanned the menu but a lot of the items were totally unfamiliar to me, so I started to look for something I had had before. My sister and friend were still trying to get me to choose what they were getting, but I did not want that, and I also did not want to just settle for what was familiar either even though my auto was to look for the familiar. I only wanted the waitress to give me more time to explore the menu. I felt so much pressure.
I asked her about some kind of specific type of food that I could not find on the menu, and she was trying to help me find it but we couldn't. I thought I would have to settle on what I already knew, when another woman who worked there sat down at the head of the table between my sister and me. She looked at us then said, "so girls tell me about your life." We started telling her a few things, and she gave some interesting feedback, which I can't remember. Then I woke up. I never made a choice as to what I wanted though.
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1:47 pm
May 27, 2005 (You won't be mine)
See what you get
From your mind
Write your soul down word for word
See who’s your friend
Who is kind
It’s almost like a disease
I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you’ll be strong
You’ll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - oh no
No you won’t be mine
Take your straight line for a curve
Make it stretch, the same old line
Try to find if it was worth what you spent
Why you’re guilty for the way
You’re feeling now
It’s almost like being free
And I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you’ll be strong
You’ll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - oh no
No you won’t be mine
Take yourself out to the curb
Sit and wait
A fool for life
It’s almost like a disease
I know soon you will be
Over the lies, you’ll be strong
You’ll be rich in love and you will carry on
But no - oh no
No you won’t be mine
May 25, 2005
1:54 pm
May 25 2005
May 22, 2005 (I am everyone)
"I am everyone
Setting flowers on my own grave" -- Stardust187
May 22, 2005 (Dream)
12:16 pm
May 21, 2005 (Walking with a Ghost)
No matter which way you stay
You're out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind
Out of my mind
I was walking with a ghost..."
2:13 pm
May 20, 2005 (Feeling subjective...)
with nothing to say.
May 18, 2005 (Dream)
I don't remember too much except that I was with my mom, and a group of women who felt I had all the answers. My mom asked them if they would be following some religious thing, which was supposed to last for 24 hours. During that time they could not do anything, no eating, bathroom, talking, or anything. They wanted to know my opinion on it, so I told them, but afterwards I remember clearly stating, "but what do I know?" I woke soon after.
1:13 pm
May 17, 2005 (Dream)
May 16, 2005 (Dream)
11:01 am
May 15, 2005 (Dream)
I dreamt of an ex boyfriend from 17 years ago, when I was only 21. In the dream it was now, but he was the the same age he was then, which was 30. felt so much love for him even more than I did when I was with him. I wanted to be close to him, but even though he was holding me and told me he cared about me he said we could not be together. I was a bit upset and I asked him why. He told me it was because I was only 12 years old. Then I realized I was only 12 years old in the dream, and that to him I was too young. My heart felt broken.
11:45 am
May 14, 2005 (Comfortably Numb)
May 13, 2005 (Dream)
Last night I dreamt I was being chased my monsters through a maze. They were very cartoonish, and it was almost comical at one point. One looked like a 4 year old boy with blond hair, but he was about 100 feet tall. He was walking around trying to step on people. I do not remember much more.
1:14 pm
May 12, 2005 (The Dolphin's Cry)
Reminds me of that night
God laid me down into your rose garden of trust
And i was swept away
With nothin' left to say
Some helpless fool
Yeah i was lost in a swoon of peace
You're all i need to find
So when the time is right
Come to me sweetly, come to me
Come to me
Love will lead us, alright
Love will lead us, she will lead us
Can you hear the dolphin's cry?
See the road rise up to meet us
It's in the air we breathe tonight
Love will lead us, she will lead us
Oh yeah, we meet again
It's like we never left
Time in between was just a dream
Did we leave this place?
This crazy fog surrounds me
You wrap your legs around me
All i can do to try and breathe
Let me breathe so that i
So we can go together!
Love will lead us, alright
Love will lead us, she will lead us
Can you hear the dolphin's cry?
See the road rise up to meet us
It's in the air we breathe tonight
Love will lead us, she will lead us
Life is like a shooting star
It don't matter who you are
If you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time
We are lost 'til we are found
This phoenix rises up from the ground
And all these wars are over
4:42 pm
May 12, 2005 (Dream)
I dreamt my daughter wanted to go on a roller coaster with me, but she was looking for my sister in order to find my daughter to go on the roller coaster with us. She was basically looking for herself. Very strange. I was aware of it being odd in the dream too.
12:23 pm
May 10, 2005 (The suspense is killing me)
Ok, ok, I guess I am ready to talk a little about part of this adventure I am on... although, I still cannot verbalize the deeper issues involved too well. I guess it really comes down to a desire for change in some form or another. Last week I went to see a plastic surgeon to talk about having my nose done. This is something I have wanted done for the past 15 years, probably longer.
2:14 pm
May 9, 2005 (You are such a tease!)
6:11 pm
May 7, 2005 (Heidi on acid)
Hahah, Sounds like a new band doesn't it? I thought I would post a pic since I don't have much to talk about lately. Well, I actually do. I have lots to talk about, yet I do not know where to begin. I have been on an adventure, so to speak, and I will probably share it with all of you at some time, or maybe not. :)
May 6, 2005 (A Poem for Byzantium)
I dreamt I was picking mushrooms from Dawn and Mark's garden. Mark was trying to show me the best ones to choose. They also had bananas growing in their garden too.
By Delerium
unforbidden shadows of you formed yesterday
i ran away to a room here on the bay
interrupted life again, another new beginning
where the silence echoes you're no longer with me
here and now, i feel that i'm embracing freedom
even though i may be alone, but that's ok
through the darkness i would walk in the streets
confessions never seemed to provide me with a release
held me down and tried to cure me tried to give me reason
but nothing could separate this burdened mind from me
here and now, i feel that i'm embracing freedom
even though i may be alone, but that's ok
and looking out to a different sky will disengage me
absence is never the answer, i know, but it serves as my shade
i do not seek and do not intend to find
a calmer ocean or a sun that will never rise
my world will never change and time will bring you to my thoughts
and i'll move on and then forget you all over again
moving on, i can forgive you all over again
here and now, i feel that i'm embracing freedom
even though i may be alone, but that's ok
and looking out onto a different sky it seems so easy
absence is never the answer, i know, but it serves as my shade
May 5, 2005 (Here we go again...)
5:06 pm
May 5, 2005
I was looking everywhere to find you
By and by, my intentions were good
But I know I don't watch where I'm walking
When I know I should
If the nighttime turns into day before I say what I mean
God damn all these obstacles before me, yeah
Every time I see your face, it's like Heaven opens up her gates
And I fall behind, I just close my eyes, I just close my eyes
If the quicksand of love and deception
Finds a way to come between you and me
Don't fret, I'm gonna cut through the darkness and set us free, yeah
And if you wanna just lay with me darlin, let the mystery silently speak
Take my tongue, take my lungs if you want, I'll even try not to breathe, yeah
Every time I see your face, something overwhelms my heart with grace
And I fall behind, I just close my eyes I just close my eyes
Every time I see your face
I know you are the one (I was looking everywhere to find you)
I know you're more than wonderful
I know you are the one
Every time I see your face, it's like Heaven opens up her gates
And I fall behind, I just close my eyes, I just close my eyes
Every time I see your face, something overwhelms my heart with grace
And I fall behind, I just close my eyes, I just close my eyes
Yeah, oh, oh, yeah
Every time
I see your face
Every time
Every time
10:03 am
May 4, 2005 (What's your, um, blood type?
Almost all Japanese are aware of their blood type. The idea began when some in the west were touting the idea that the asian peoples were more closely related to animals then humans, or lower on the evolutionary chain, since type B blood was the predominant blood type in asians and animals. As ludicrous and unscientific as this idea was, it was insulting to say the least. Modern science disproves this obviously faulted idea. In the 1930's Furukawa Takeji (1891–1940) set out to disprove this notion and a new idea was born.
However, the idea of personality traits being influenced by blood type remains. Companies in Japan even had divided workers by blood type.
Here are the general ideas of each blood type. The Rh factor plays no role in the blood type/personality idea:
Type O:
Type O's are outgoing, and very social. They are initiators, although they don't always finish what they start. Creative and popular, they love to be the center of attention and appear very self confident.
Type A:
While outwardly calm, they have such high standards (perfectionists) that they tend to be balls of nerves on the inside. Type A's are the most artistic of the blood groups. They can be shy, are conscientious, trustworthy, and sensitive.
Type B:
Goal oriented and strong minded, type B's will start a task and continue it until completed, and completed well. Type B's are the individualists of the blood group categories and find their own way in life.
Type AB's are the split personalities of the blood groups. They can be both outgoing and shy, confident and timid. While responsible, too much responsibility will cause a problem. They are trustworthy and like to help others.
Compatability by Blood Groups:
A is most compatible with A and AB
B is most compatible with B and AB
AB is most compatible with AB, B, A and O
O is most compatible with O, and AB"
Population
Roughly 38% of the world is O +ve and 6% O -ve.
Traits
Confident and Strong-Willed, Proud, Dedicated, Sociable, Energetic, Extroverted, Frank, Realist, Showy, Flighty, Generalist, Positive, Independent, Risk-Takers, Dislike taking orders, Insecure, Stubborn & Self-Centered.
Make friends easily and go with flow and grasp opportunity. Quick to start a project or chase an idea. Are good at organizing activities. May have short attention span, and expresses strong emotions. May quickly take opposite views that are deep but not always durable. Classic entrepreneurs and movers and shakers.
Express their emotions but can be swayed by other blood types. Have an intrinsic elegance. Sociable and showy. May be good at adapting to circumstances. Words come easily to them. Not self conscious and will frankly reveal inner feelings. Ambitious, but may have issues with detail.
Like to be touch and be touched by others.
Population
Roughly 34% of the world is A +ve and 6% A -ve.
Traits
Obedient, Careful, Sympathetic, Self-Sacrificing, Polite, Honest, Loyal, Emotional, Introverted & Nervous.
Are reserved calm and even tempered. Sensitive to public opinion. May be Introverted, shy and nervous or ill at ease with others. May be Pessimistic. Value relationships and are loyal. Hesitant to change. Nature lovers and dislike crowds - need a private place or secret hideaway. Can be indecisive. Good at team work and obey rules.
Dislike to touch or be touched by others.
Population
Roughly 9% of the world is B +ve and 2% B -ve.
Traits
Cheerful, Optimistic, Active, Sensitive, Kind, Forgetful, unorganized, Noisy, Egocentric
Energetic and have the drive to reach towards goals. May be workaholics. Not the best team players and are individualistic. Do things at one's own pace. Strong personality adventurous. Likes to get one's own way. Are Sociable and enjoy entertaining.
Like to touch or be touched by others.
Population
Roughly 4% of the world is AB +ve and 1% AB -ve.
Traits
Social, Easy-going, Sympathetic, Diplomatic, Outgoing, Laid-back, Creative, Unpredictable, Artistic, Flexible, Moody and Brooding.
Blend of opposites. Shy with some and bold with some. Introvert and Extrovert. Unpredictable and may seem to have calm exterior. Strong creative strain. Good at spotting problems and skirting them. Like city environment. Get bored easily. Everything they do is compelling. Never take things for granted. Appear mysterious. Contribute harmoniously to society.
Dislike to touch or be touched by others."
May 4, 2005 (A Poem)
A lovely poem written by a friend. :)
"What serpent slithers?
What apple entices?
What brother grins treachery with all niceness?
It is with Methuselah that I too, wonder
Sitting in this garden, quizzical to ponder
laying peacefully dreaming, in her lap, my head upon 'er
Daisies into my hair, slid, up under...
All the world is an Eden, and innocence surrounds us like gentle waters
Laying by the creek side, aMUSEd with wonder...with all openness and all freedom, innocence may be swam within, or to quench an ageless thirst...
An inspired,
OPAN"
May 3, 2005 (Dream)
Last night I dreamt I was visiting some woman. I do not know her in real life, and I didn't in the dream either, but at the end when I was getting ready to leave, she had tears pouring down her face. It was odd because I had not felt much emotion from her during the whole dream, and she had felt sort of standoffish, making the whole visit seem superficial, even though she tried to make sure I had fun. There seemed to be walls she put up around her, but there at the end she just let all her emotion pour out, and we were hugging each other. I told her I would come back again some day to visit. My youngest son and my sister were there with me too. They were also hugging her, and she appeared to feel genuinely connected to all three of us. Not only could I feel all my emotions but I could feel the woman's, my sister's and my son's too. Very intense dream.
10:47 am
May 1, 2005 (Dream)
I dreamt I was eating blue roses made of frosting, with my fingers, off of a birthday cake. Then I was eating chocolate chip cookies. Someone asked me if I could bring them some cookies, but I had the frosting all over my fingers, so I was trying to wash it all off before I gave them their cookies.
Oh, and I woke up weighing a half pound more than I did yesterday. :p
